Friday, July 9, 2010

Sign from the man upstairs

Happy Friday everyone!!!

What a week it has been for me! Unfortunately there has been a lot of negative things happening at my work this week. It's like a volcano, there is only so much pressure before she blows! Basically, issues that have been building for some time have finally come to a head. I'm very nervous about my future here and furthermore, what my next move is going to be. I have felt the need to change jobs for awhile but I have stayed on for the comforts - benefits, proximity to my home, flexibility, and ease of work. And because I'm scared to be jobless. Yet, what's the point in going through life unstimulated and bored at work? I am not one to just make drastic changes so I really have to think this out and talk to Ry about it as I have responsibilities to think about.

I think this is a huge sign from the man upstairs, like a flashing brightly, fire works coming out, sign that this is my chance to go for it and immerse myself in my passions. Deep inside I'm doing a happy dance, but there is that voice, that annoying negative voice, that is holding me back.

I'm going to be doing a lot of reflection this weekend and I'm not saying change is going to happen immediately but I definitely have to take action.

So, please pray/send good vibes/think about me this weekend as I contemplate what my next move is going to be.

Thank you in advance! I love and appreciate you all:)

Have a wonderful weekend with lots of kisses from the sun:)

Ps this is a song that I am just loving right now from two Canadian ladies, Tegan and Sara. I love the beat a lot but when I looked into the lyrics, they were quite suiting too!

I know you can interpret the song in a multiple of ways but for me I'm tailoring it to where I'm at right now.

I feel you in my bones

you're knocking at my window

You're slow to letting me go

and I know this feeling oh, so

this feeling in my bones

I see this as my fear, my fear to change my career, to fail, to succeed and on and on. I feel it constantly and I always have been a fearful person. That's what I grew up knowing -fear to jump out of what society wants/needs you to be.

But there is a time for anything, and maybe it's my time to do this!



HiHoRosie said...

I hate stress...especially work-related and when there's so much negativity. That's always my sign to move on when it's affecting everything around me or I'm bringing it home. Definitely sending you good vibes - hope you are able to realize your dreams soon! Love the song! But then I love T&S too. Song rocks!

Kris | said...

LOVELY LADY! Listen to your heart!! Please!

This happened to me last december, I was working at the software company and hated it. So much drama going on around there, I started my own business but still not ready to let go of the software co's income.

But they made that decision for me. The doors shut over there and I was left to follow my dreams. Working from home! You never know what the "man upstairs" has planned for you ;) You know you are on the right path when it is effortlessly coming together!!


bitt said...

Good for you! It is so hard to make such big changes but it shows you are feeling strong enough to do it.

We'll be here cheering you on!

Lori said...

Hey there! I'm sorry you're going through some unpleasant times at work and I feel for ya. I was going through that at work too with a very abusive boss.. But then I found my new job. Giving me back my confidence and ability to make my own schedule, it has been a blessing. I'm excited for you to find a new path for yourself!! You are an awesome person, from what I've read ;) and know you'll soon be happier. Positive thoughts going your way.
You know, my company is expanding and growing rapidly, if you're ever interested... :)

Kelsey said...

its so crazy how signs are always flashing at us.. its up to us to recognize them or not. sometimes the signs are good, sometimes bad. or soemtimes they come at the perfect time.. and then others at less than perfect times.

listen to that intuition of yours always, and the signs along ur path! it'll always set u in motion towards the place you want to be <3


Anonymous said...

Hi beautiful!
First of all, I'm so happy you wrote this post. It is so scary to make huge changes in our lives...sometimes we get to a place where we are comfortable but not necessarily happy...or our situations change and we have to contemplate huge changes like you are now...and it is hard to imagine yourself taking such a leap. I wish you the best of luck in making this decision, and I know you will have the courage to do whatever it is that makes you happiest! I'll be thinking of you.
Also, thanks for sharing the Tegan and Sara song. I love them! And the song is so fitting. I love how you applied it to your situation and relate to the music...I do that all the time. I find it soothing. I hope it helps you the way it does for me.
Wishing you all the best now and always...I know things will work out well for you.

evergreen said...

Aww, sweetie...I am absolutely sending good vibes your way!

You are the only one who knows what is right for you :) {{{HUGS}}}

Melissa said...

Heidi, Kris, Aimee, Lori, Kelsey, Lauren, and Angela THANK YOU from the bottom of my heart for your kind words and encouragement! You give me so much strength to conquer my fears you have no idea.
Thank you also for sharing all your experiences as this has really given me the drive to know that I can move on and it will be okay!!
You are all amazing..HUGE HUGS to you all!!

Nelly said...

sending you love and great great vibes...

definitely follow your heart...and do what you need to do...

i've been on the same page as you...keep trying to figure out what it is i want to do with my time...because i truly hate what i do...

good luck my friend...

Melissa said...

Hey Nelly!
Sending you great vibes too gorgeous! I don't like being in limbo but this is a huge growth period for me so I'm welcoming it. I think you should just make mooonie pies for the rest of your life...I would be your biggest customer lol!

kelli said...

hope things are working out for you! i love tegan and sara!