What a week it has been for me! Unfortunately there has been a lot of negative things happening at my work this week. It's like a volcano, there is only so much pressure before she blows! Basically, issues that have been building for some time have finally come to a head. I'm very nervous about my future here and furthermore, what my next move is going to be. I have felt the need to change jobs for awhile but I have stayed on for the comforts - benefits, proximity to my home, flexibility, and ease of work. And because I'm scared to be jobless. Yet, what's the point in going through life unstimulated and bored at work? I am not one to just make drastic changes so I really have to think this out and talk to Ry about it as I have responsibilities to think about.
I think this is a huge sign from the man upstairs, like a flashing brightly, fire works coming out, sign that this is my chance to go for it and immerse myself in my passions. Deep inside I'm doing a happy dance, but there is that voice, that annoying negative voice, that is holding me back.
I'm going to be doing a lot of reflection this weekend and I'm not saying change is going to happen immediately but I definitely have to take action.
So, please pray/send good vibes/think about me this weekend as I contemplate what my next move is going to be.
Thank you in advance! I love and appreciate you all:)
Have a wonderful weekend with lots of kisses from the sun:)
Ps this is a song that I am just loving right now from two Canadian ladies, Tegan and Sara. I love the beat a lot but when I looked into the lyrics, they were quite suiting too!
I know you can interpret the song in a multiple of ways but for me I'm tailoring it to where I'm at right now.
I feel you in my bones
you're knocking at my window
You're slow to letting me go
and I know this feeling oh, so
this feeling in my bones
I see this as my fear, my fear to change my career, to fail, to succeed and on and on. I feel it constantly and I always have been a fearful person. That's what I grew up knowing -fear to jump out of what society wants/needs you to be.
But there is a time for anything, and maybe it's my time to do this!
XOXOXO
